I made my first hair tutorial. :D
Saturday, 31 July 2010
Friday, 30 July 2010
hairspray.
That stuff is amazing.
My favourite freeze hairspray is, of course, by got2b. I love their products. :]
So, I had to walk to my SAT class today, and it was hecka windy outside. I sprayed on some hairspray to make my spikes stay in place, and even after 30 minutes of walking in 20+ mi/hr wind, my hair DID NOT BUDGE. At all. Love. ♥
Also, what's really been bugging me lately is that I cannot find a waterproof matte white eyeliner. I found a few kohl liners, but I WANT WATERPROOF, DAMMIT. I went into Sephora, almost certain that Urban Decay would have a white eyeliner, but NO. They only have shimmering white one.
I NEED A WATERPROOF MATTE WHITE EYELINER. Is it really that hard to put into consideration the number of people who use eyeliner as a highlight rather than actual highlighter? Geez. Go die, all you stupid makeup companies.
And just to clear things up, I don't wear makeup. It'd be a bit strange if I did. Lol. But I need the white eyeliner because I'm a practising makeup artist. I'd probably piss myself if I wanted to keep talking about how awesome and versatile white eyeliner is.
My favourite freeze hairspray is, of course, by got2b. I love their products. :]
So, I had to walk to my SAT class today, and it was hecka windy outside. I sprayed on some hairspray to make my spikes stay in place, and even after 30 minutes of walking in 20+ mi/hr wind, my hair DID NOT BUDGE. At all. Love. ♥
Also, what's really been bugging me lately is that I cannot find a waterproof matte white eyeliner. I found a few kohl liners, but I WANT WATERPROOF, DAMMIT. I went into Sephora, almost certain that Urban Decay would have a white eyeliner, but NO. They only have shimmering white one.
I NEED A WATERPROOF MATTE WHITE EYELINER. Is it really that hard to put into consideration the number of people who use eyeliner as a highlight rather than actual highlighter? Geez. Go die, all you stupid makeup companies.
And just to clear things up, I don't wear makeup. It'd be a bit strange if I did. Lol. But I need the white eyeliner because I'm a practising makeup artist. I'd probably piss myself if I wanted to keep talking about how awesome and versatile white eyeliner is.
Thursday, 29 July 2010
Wednesday, 28 July 2010
jae has a new best friend.
Why, yes, I do. :]
His name is Andyrew.
He's my best friend because he told me that he'd give me a bubble blower thingy that lights up when blowing bubbles. :D
His name is Andyrew.
He's my best friend because he told me that he'd give me a bubble blower thingy that lights up when blowing bubbles. :D
insert creative and witty title here.
Even if your feelings grow distant tomorrow,
Surely my love will remain unchanged.
Even I pass from your heart tomorrow,
Surely my love will remain unchanged.
Please have eyes only for me...
Please don't let go of my hand...
the GazettE - Cassis
Monday, 26 July 2010
wakaremichi.
To tell you the truth, it hurts, and it's painful, and I'm lonely, but I want to pretend to be strong at least to you.... I'm so stupid. I'm the one that wants to cry.
the GazettE - Wakaremichi
Do you remember that conversation that me and two of my friends had? Yeah. That conversation went nowhere after that. :/
Today's post is going to be short. I just realised that I have an essay to write. It's due tonight. :O
Peace.
Saturday, 24 July 2010
it's been a while.
Not really.
Anyways, two friends and I were having a conversation about love. It started when one of them had a status update or something that said, "love hurts."
I thought that it'd be nice if I shared it. You know, just so I won't have to scroll through pages and pages of Facebook posts to find it. ^^
Colour code:
That's how far we've gotten on the conversation so far. I'll probably write a new post if there are any major updates. :]
Anyways, two friends and I were having a conversation about love. It started when one of them had a status update or something that said, "love hurts."
I thought that it'd be nice if I shared it. You know, just so I won't have to scroll through pages and pages of Facebook posts to find it. ^^
Colour code:
Me :]
Joe ♥
Eileen ♥
Love does not hurt.
Everyone says love hurts, but that isn't true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.
yes, but when one feels love, along with it comes many other emotions, some of them not so nice, because we're humans. they say love is the most powerful emotion. i agree, because love has the ability to encompass a huge range of other emotions. love may bring one so much joy and erase all pain, but self doubts, jealousy, fear they will not be loved anymore, comes with it as well. love is a really complex emotion. i don't quite fully understand it yet.
it's more of like... love IS jealousy. love IS happiness. and love IS pain. at least for me it is.
The word "love" is used in such a common manner that it has lost its meaning...especially to me. It does hurt because when you experience this feeling for someone you are untouchable...a natural high. But after a relationship ends...you com...e crashing from a place so high and go down so fast, but that's the only time you can see the cuts and bruises you've recieved from loving someone so much...And before you hit the ground.......you ask yourself "Was it worth loving her (or him)?"
personal experience
personal experience
Love hurts the most when it's only a one way street instead two...Love is not meant to be like that.
@Eileen: No one but God can truly understand love. And I don't care if you're agnostic or whatever, but I just have to put that out there. Love goes with everything good. Love can CAUSE one to feel pain or jealousy, but love is not pain or... jealousy itself.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8a, 13: "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails....And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."
1 Peter 4:8: "Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins."
1 John 3:16: "This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers."
Love is God Himself.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8a, 13: "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails....And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."
1 Peter 4:8: "Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins."
1 John 3:16: "This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers."
Love is God Himself.
@Joe: Love was not meant to hurt. It was meant to bring people happiness. It was meant to bring peace an harmony in a society. The ten commandments are all based off of love for one another. "You shall not steal." "You shall not commit adu...ltery." "Honour your father and mother." If someone violates the terms of the commandments, isn't because he has too much hatred? If he had loved his parents, his wife, his neighbours, none of that would have happened.
The reason why we sin is because we do not love.
1 Peter 4:8: "Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins."
Okay, I know that I've kind of strayed away from the original topic.
Anyways. One sided love... You know, if you really think about it, it's like Jesus and us. He loved us so much that He died for us. And yet, no one really appreciated that. Everyone mocked Him and cursed Him. Still, He did not turn His back on us or give up on us. He did not ask God to punish us. He kept on loving us. And He still does. He loves everyone, even if they're sinners, even if they don't believe in Him.
Uhh, I realise that had nothing to do with what we're talking about. Hmm.
If you really loved someone, you wouldn't give up, would you? Even if they didn't love you back. Besides, you need to talk to God about these things. See, God decides for you who you're going to marry. He doesn't necessarily decide for you who you fall in love with. If you fall in love with someone but she isn't the right person, God may still allow it. He will let you love her, but He may be "using" her to help you in some way or as a test or something. But if He decides to take her away from you, don't blame Him. Instead, talk to Him and ask Him what He wants. Remember, you're living for God, not for yourself. Because God gave you this life. There's no way that you could repay Him for everything He's done for you, but all He wants is that you abide with Him. (Look! I used a Bible word!)
The reason why we sin is because we do not love.
1 Peter 4:8: "Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins."
Okay, I know that I've kind of strayed away from the original topic.
Anyways. One sided love... You know, if you really think about it, it's like Jesus and us. He loved us so much that He died for us. And yet, no one really appreciated that. Everyone mocked Him and cursed Him. Still, He did not turn His back on us or give up on us. He did not ask God to punish us. He kept on loving us. And He still does. He loves everyone, even if they're sinners, even if they don't believe in Him.
Uhh, I realise that had nothing to do with what we're talking about. Hmm.
If you really loved someone, you wouldn't give up, would you? Even if they didn't love you back. Besides, you need to talk to God about these things. See, God decides for you who you're going to marry. He doesn't necessarily decide for you who you fall in love with. If you fall in love with someone but she isn't the right person, God may still allow it. He will let you love her, but He may be "using" her to help you in some way or as a test or something. But if He decides to take her away from you, don't blame Him. Instead, talk to Him and ask Him what He wants. Remember, you're living for God, not for yourself. Because God gave you this life. There's no way that you could repay Him for everything He's done for you, but all He wants is that you abide with Him. (Look! I used a Bible word!)
That's how far we've gotten on the conversation so far. I'll probably write a new post if there are any major updates. :]
Saturday, 17 July 2010
formspring.
[Link]
No one ever reads this blog, but I feel like I should put up my formspring link. Just for the heck of it. :]
백지영 ♥
No one ever reads this blog, but I feel like I should put up my formspring link. Just for the heck of it. :]
백지영 ♥
Friday, 16 July 2010
i won't love.
I've been really into ballads lately. They're so pretty. ♥
I changed the blog's song to I Won't Love by Baek Ji Young. Her voice is so pretty. ^^
사랑 안해.
Yes, I've been studying Korean. I'm getting hecka fast at typing Korean now! :D I've also been keeping up with my Japanese studies. I've put off trying to learn Cantonese because I can't handle learning 29384329847 languages at one time~ Besides, the only thing I really have to learn in Cantonese is how every character is pronounced. I can already read, write, and I already know grammar because I'm Chinese. The writing system for both Cantonese and Mandarin are the same. Lol.
I changed the blog's song to I Won't Love by Baek Ji Young. Her voice is so pretty. ^^
사랑 안해.
Yes, I've been studying Korean. I'm getting hecka fast at typing Korean now! :D I've also been keeping up with my Japanese studies. I've put off trying to learn Cantonese because I can't handle learning 29384329847 languages at one time~ Besides, the only thing I really have to learn in Cantonese is how every character is pronounced. I can already read, write, and I already know grammar because I'm Chinese. The writing system for both Cantonese and Mandarin are the same. Lol.
Thursday, 15 July 2010
tumblr.
See, I would get a tumblr, but I don't understand it at all, so I stick with Blogger. But I have Gmail, so I don't need to sign up for it. I just have to sign in with my Google account. ^^ Plus, I've been using Blogger for almost five years already, so I know how it works and stuff. And you don't have to write your own code for layouts. I'm too lazy to write code.
But yea. Blogger is more simple to use, and that's the way I like it. :]
But yea. Blogger is more simple to use, and that's the way I like it. :]
Tuesday, 13 July 2010
draw with me. ♥
This made me cry. When I was watching this, I thought, "That boy is me," especially when he wrote, "It's so cold. I want to be with you" and when he tried to break through the glass.
I hope that one day, I will find someone who I love enough to break through everything so I could be with them.
♥
Monday, 12 July 2010
pasta.
That stuff is hecka good. :]
I would be having pasta for lunch... but my mom thought that it would be a good idea to buy huge boxes of frozen pizza. So, I'm stuck eating pizza instead. :/ And I'll be having pizza on Friday, too. Because my mom goes to work on Mondays and Fridays. But I get to eat good stuff when she's at home. Like, subway. Which really isn't that good if you eat it too often, but whatever. It's better than eating the same thing every single freaking day. :/
And yes, I KNOW THAT NO ONE READS THIS BLOG, OKAY? I'm not retarded. I didn't post it as a link on Facebook to share with everyone. Why? Well, the link for it is on my little boxy thing on the side. So, I just want to see who bothers to actually click on that link... or even read the boxy thing. P:
Speaking of boxy thing, I got on the high scores list for BoxHead 2Play Rooms. Hahaha. I win. :]
I would be having pasta for lunch... but my mom thought that it would be a good idea to buy huge boxes of frozen pizza. So, I'm stuck eating pizza instead. :/ And I'll be having pizza on Friday, too. Because my mom goes to work on Mondays and Fridays. But I get to eat good stuff when she's at home. Like, subway. Which really isn't that good if you eat it too often, but whatever. It's better than eating the same thing every single freaking day. :/
And yes, I KNOW THAT NO ONE READS THIS BLOG, OKAY? I'm not retarded. I didn't post it as a link on Facebook to share with everyone. Why? Well, the link for it is on my little boxy thing on the side. So, I just want to see who bothers to actually click on that link... or even read the boxy thing. P:
Speaking of boxy thing, I got on the high scores list for BoxHead 2Play Rooms. Hahaha. I win. :]
Sunday, 11 July 2010
major.
I've finally figured out what I want to major in when I go to college: Asian languages and culture. That's so fobby of me, isn't it?
The reason I want to choose this major is because I can learn and memorise vocabulary and grammar fairly easily. And I already have a solid foundation in Chinese, Japanese, and Korean. So, it'd be a lot easier for me. Also, I really like studying Asian languages. :D
I'M GOING TO BE AN AMBASSADOR WHEN I GROW UP.
Actually, I have no idea what I want to do. Maybe I can go to an Asian country and teach English. Or I can travel to those countries and do make up art there. Or I can be a translator. For MANGA. <3 Haha. I'm just being weird now. But seriously, there are so many possibilities. I don't know what I'm going to do.
And I really have to thank my little sister for helping me decide on this major. She was talking about how I'm better at Korean than some of her Korean friends. Before, we were talking about how I was good at Japanese or whatever. Then, she told me that I should major in Korean. And I thought that might be a good idea, and that majoring in Japanese wouldn't be bad, either. So, I decided, why not just major in East Asian languages in general?
I already know Mandarin pretty well, but I still need to study those thingies (I forgot what they're called, but they're the four-character sayings or whatever). Because that's really important in Chinese. And I need to learn how to read. Haha. Both traditional and simplified. I can read some of both (traditional because I study Japanese kanji and simplified because that's what I learned growing up), but I definitely need to improve.
But until then, I'll study hard! :)
The reason I want to choose this major is because I can learn and memorise vocabulary and grammar fairly easily. And I already have a solid foundation in Chinese, Japanese, and Korean. So, it'd be a lot easier for me. Also, I really like studying Asian languages. :D
I'M GOING TO BE AN AMBASSADOR WHEN I GROW UP.
Actually, I have no idea what I want to do. Maybe I can go to an Asian country and teach English. Or I can travel to those countries and do make up art there. Or I can be a translator. For MANGA. <3 Haha. I'm just being weird now. But seriously, there are so many possibilities. I don't know what I'm going to do.
And I really have to thank my little sister for helping me decide on this major. She was talking about how I'm better at Korean than some of her Korean friends. Before, we were talking about how I was good at Japanese or whatever. Then, she told me that I should major in Korean. And I thought that might be a good idea, and that majoring in Japanese wouldn't be bad, either. So, I decided, why not just major in East Asian languages in general?
I already know Mandarin pretty well, but I still need to study those thingies (I forgot what they're called, but they're the four-character sayings or whatever). Because that's really important in Chinese. And I need to learn how to read. Haha. Both traditional and simplified. I can read some of both (traditional because I study Japanese kanji and simplified because that's what I learned growing up), but I definitely need to improve.
But until then, I'll study hard! :)
Wednesday, 7 July 2010
secret.
I figured that since no one ever reads this anyways, I'll post a secret.
I don't want to call him because he'll think that I'm annoying.
If I told myself that I wouldn't eat until he called, I could lose 20 pounds.
I don't want to call him because he'll think that I'm annoying.
Tuesday, 6 July 2010
birthplace.
Today, I was signing up for something online, and it asks you to pick a security question. The only one I could actually answer was "where were you born?". Oddly enough, I had to actually think about it before typing in the answer.
It was weird. I mean, I know where I was born. But this one time, it felt awkward to type in "China."
This usually happens to people when they start to feel Americanised, right? But that's not the reason for me. I have no idea why. For some reason, I just don't feel Chinese anymore. And it's not because I feel like American. I honestly don't know what I am. Japanese? Korean? British? German? French? I have no clue.
It was weird. I mean, I know where I was born. But this one time, it felt awkward to type in "China."
This usually happens to people when they start to feel Americanised, right? But that's not the reason for me. I have no idea why. For some reason, I just don't feel Chinese anymore. And it's not because I feel like American. I honestly don't know what I am. Japanese? Korean? British? German? French? I have no clue.
Monday, 5 July 2010
japantown and july 4.
Man, I love that place. I love it so much I want to kill it.
Honestly, though. I'm sick of going to Japantown. I only go there for food and pictures. And maybe not even food. But I go there because I'm a PikaPika addict. XD
Today, I figured out that my brother is the most amazing decorator ever. He covered up our faces with a bunch of random crap. I salute him for that. Why? Because I looked really bad in that picture. And now, you can't even see me. >:D
I finally got my very own kanji dictionary! :] I'm such a nerd, I know. XD Oh, I also got a Japanese-English English-Japanese dictionary. But I use it mainly for the English-Japanese part. Because the kanji dictionary is Japanese-English. Does that make any sense at all? O.o
I think this was the first Japantown trip when I didn't buy anything. :O I'm amazed.
Alrighties, moving on to the next topic. July 4.
I hate July 4 like no other. Why? Because a certain person and I made a promise. Let's call that person Samus. (I play too many video games.) Samus promised me that we would watch fireworks together on July 4. Well, that never happened. Why? Because SHE FUCKING DUMPED ME before we could do that. :/
Okay, it's not that bad. She didn't dump me. She broke up with me. Sorry. >.>
The thing is, I don't have any feelings for her anymore. We're just friends. It's just that... I miss having someone there to hold my hand. ><
Also, I don't like to break promises. :/ And speaking of promises, another reason why I don't like going to Japantown is because one of my best friends promised to buy me a crepe the next time we go. I'm just waiting until we go before I get a crepe. Because I've never had a crepe before. P:
I WANT A FUCKING CREPE.
Honestly, though. I'm sick of going to Japantown. I only go there for food and pictures. And maybe not even food. But I go there because I'm a PikaPika addict. XD
Today, I figured out that my brother is the most amazing decorator ever. He covered up our faces with a bunch of random crap. I salute him for that. Why? Because I looked really bad in that picture. And now, you can't even see me. >:D
I finally got my very own kanji dictionary! :] I'm such a nerd, I know. XD Oh, I also got a Japanese-English English-Japanese dictionary. But I use it mainly for the English-Japanese part. Because the kanji dictionary is Japanese-English. Does that make any sense at all? O.o
I think this was the first Japantown trip when I didn't buy anything. :O I'm amazed.
Alrighties, moving on to the next topic. July 4.
I hate July 4 like no other. Why? Because a certain person and I made a promise. Let's call that person Samus. (I play too many video games.) Samus promised me that we would watch fireworks together on July 4. Well, that never happened. Why? Because SHE FUCKING DUMPED ME before we could do that. :/
Okay, it's not that bad. She didn't dump me. She broke up with me. Sorry. >.>
The thing is, I don't have any feelings for her anymore. We're just friends. It's just that... I miss having someone there to hold my hand. ><
Also, I don't like to break promises. :/ And speaking of promises, another reason why I don't like going to Japantown is because one of my best friends promised to buy me a crepe the next time we go. I'm just waiting until we go before I get a crepe. Because I've never had a crepe before. P:
I WANT A FUCKING CREPE.
Thursday, 1 July 2010
why can't kpop artists actually sing?
Okay, so I'm convinced that kpop singers can't actually sing. :/ So, I've decided to test various kpop singers and groups to see who can actually sing and who can't.
Keep in mind that I'm not biased towards or against any artist, and I'm not trying to bash. I'm doing this because I'm bored. XD Also, for each artist, I'll look up at least five different live performances before deciding whether they pass or fail.
Green is pass, and red is fail. Yellow is decent.
Big Bang
Daesung
G-Dragon (He can't sing, but he can rap.)
Seungri
Taeyang
T.O.P.
Brown Eyed Girls
Gain
Jea
Miryo
Narsha
Alright, I'm done for now. I seriously can't stand any more horrible singing. XD
Well, I'll be learning the Run Devil Run dance. :)
Keep in mind that I'm not biased towards or against any artist, and I'm not trying to bash. I'm doing this because I'm bored. XD Also, for each artist, I'll look up at least five different live performances before deciding whether they pass or fail.
Green is pass, and red is fail. Yellow is decent.
Big Bang
Daesung
G-Dragon (He can't sing, but he can rap.)
Seungri
Taeyang
T.O.P.
Brown Eyed Girls
Gain
Jea
Miryo
Narsha
Alright, I'm done for now. I seriously can't stand any more horrible singing. XD
Well, I'll be learning the Run Devil Run dance. :)
smile. :)
Okay, first, I'd like to apologise about yesterday. Stuff happened. ><
Anyways. Here is my mini rant of the day. :)
I'm truly amazed at how no one smiles while dancing anymore. YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO SMILE. IF YOU WANT PEOPLE TO ENJOY YOUR PERFORMANCE AND THINK YOU'RE HAVING FUN, YOU HAFTA SMILE. Yes, you smile even if you're bboying, no matter how stupid and unmanly you think it is. SO SMILE, DAMMIT.
That was my Facebook status, so I had to keep it short. :/
But seriously. When I was in guard, SMILING WAS KEY. Even if we dropped all our tosses and fucked up the entire performance, we'd always have to keep smiling. SMILE, NO MATTER WHAT. Even if you fell on your face, and now your entire face is red. No one freaking cares about that. SMILE.
So, I was on YouTube looking up kpop dance covers and stuff like that, and I can't believe that NO ONE WAS SMILING. Just because the original artists don't smile doesn't mean you don't have to. The artists were singing. That's understandable. I can't smile and sing at the same time because I'll end up laughing. I can't sing anyways, but let's ignore that for now. XD But when you're dancing and have a frown on your face, no one wants to watch you.
And then, I was lucky enough to stumble across a cover of Run Devil Run. The dancer was smiling. :O I was so amazed. And she's hecka good, too. Way better than those non-smiling dancers. :/ Check out her channel! :D [Link]
Uhh. There was something else I wanted to talk about, but I forgot. Oh, wells. :/
Anyways. Here is my mini rant of the day. :)
I'm truly amazed at how no one smiles while dancing anymore. YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO SMILE. IF YOU WANT PEOPLE TO ENJOY YOUR PERFORMANCE AND THINK YOU'RE HAVING FUN, YOU HAFTA SMILE. Yes, you smile even if you're bboying, no matter how stupid and unmanly you think it is. SO SMILE, DAMMIT.
That was my Facebook status, so I had to keep it short. :/
But seriously. When I was in guard, SMILING WAS KEY. Even if we dropped all our tosses and fucked up the entire performance, we'd always have to keep smiling. SMILE, NO MATTER WHAT. Even if you fell on your face, and now your entire face is red. No one freaking cares about that. SMILE.
So, I was on YouTube looking up kpop dance covers and stuff like that, and I can't believe that NO ONE WAS SMILING. Just because the original artists don't smile doesn't mean you don't have to. The artists were singing. That's understandable. I can't smile and sing at the same time because I'll end up laughing. I can't sing anyways, but let's ignore that for now. XD But when you're dancing and have a frown on your face, no one wants to watch you.
And then, I was lucky enough to stumble across a cover of Run Devil Run. The dancer was smiling. :O I was so amazed. And she's hecka good, too. Way better than those non-smiling dancers. :/ Check out her channel! :D [Link]
Uhh. There was something else I wanted to talk about, but I forgot. Oh, wells. :/
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