makeup.

When I put on makeup, I am pretty.

When I don't put on makeup, I am beautiful.

last school day of the year.

I decided to play SC2 in all my classes today.

Yeah. That's how I roll. >:3

i can't hide forever.

And neither can you.

i hate people.

Because according to people...

I'm a bitch because I know the truth.
I'm a bitch because I tried to help a friend.
I'm a bitch because I don't like cowards.
I'm a bitch because I "start drama."
I'm a bitch because I do "stupid shit to get attention."
I'm a bitch because I cry too much.
I'm a bitch because I "cry to get attention."
I'm a bitch because I "don't understand what's going on."
I'm a bitch because I don't like a certain person.
I'm a bitch because I yell at people who need to be yelled at.
I'm a bitch because I am against high school relationships.
I'm a bitch because I am sometimes loud.
I'm a bitch because I am "weird."
I'm a bitch because I "dress like a wannabe emo faggot."
I'm a bitch because I have homework.
I'm a bitch because I get frustrated.
I'm a bitch because I don't want to blindly follow a leader.

Basically, everything is my fault.

But it's okay.
Because I don't care what these people think.
Because there are people who know I'm not a bitch.
Because there are people who say I am beautiful.

And I believe these people because they mean the world to me. ♥

but i don't hate her.

I'm sick of staring at her stupid face.
I'm sick of putting up with her complaints.
I'm sick of hearing about how she's so mean to my friends.
I'm sick of watching her hold hands with someone who I thought was my friend.
I'm sick of being her friend.

Yet...
I still act like I'm her friend.
I am her friend.
I like her.

And I still talk to her like nothing's wrong.
I talk to her like I don't know what's going on.

But I do know.
And it pisses me off.

Sometimes, I want to be really mean to her and scare her into being nice to my friend.

But it's okay.
I think that she needs to realise herself.

So I will continue to be her friend.
I will continue to like her.
I will continue to hang out with her.

Even though I know the reason she's my friend, I won't be her friend out of pity.
But I won't let her use me, either.

So I've decided to go on with life and pretend like nothing is wrong.

Because no one, no matter what they've done, deserves to be treated like shit.

She's worth it.

yesterday.

Yesterday, I spent the entire day with Justin. It was so much fun. ♥
It made me very happy.
It was the happiest I've been in a while.

Thank you so much.

And that night, I realised that I want to be best friends with Justin for the rest of my life.

i'm such a loner.

And I like it.

Well, I have friends. But I prefer to be alone. At the library. Sleeping. Studying.
It calms me down.
It's my escape because bboying just isn't possible every day.

I like being alone.
It helps me think.

Sometimes, I'd rather not be in a huge group of friends or have a huge party.
What if I'd rather hang out with just one or two people?
What if I'd rather cuddle with my stuffed animals alone?
Does that make me normal?

Or am I just strange like that?

aww. ♥

♥

it doesn't hurt at all.

It doesn't bother me.

Say it to my face next time, you coward.