day 23: the last person i kissed.

Let's not talk about that.

day 22: someone i want to give a second chance to.

Mmm. I don't know.
I think this topic meant like, if one of my exes asked me for a second chance, would I give it to them?

Well. No.

Because I'm not interested in a relationship at the moment.

day 21: someone i judged by his first impression.

Umm... I don't really know.

I don't think that first impressions are really that important when you're young and immature like me.

First impressions are a lot more important when you're applying for a college or when you're at a job interview.

I don't think I've ever really cared about first impressions.

But obviously, practically everyone cares about what he looks like on the first day of school.
I guess you could say that's a part of making good first impressions.

But really, I don't care.

day 20: the one who broke my heart the hardest.

Hmm.

I don't really know.
I got over him.
It doesn't matter anymore.

I don't compare boyfriends.

day 19: someone who pesters my mind (good or bad).

I really don't know. :/

day 18: the person i wish i could be.

WARNING: Prepare for incorrect grammar.

Ideally, my name would be Amii.
I would have naturally straight hair.
I would have an almost-flat stomach.
I would be pretty, both inside and out.
I would have a better personality.
I wouldn't be so selfish.
I would have money so I'd be able to actually afford things for my friends.
I wouldn't be retarded.
I wouldn't procrastinate so much.
I wouldn't have bad grades.
I would actually care about academics.
I would have a giant stuffed animal that I could hug all the time.
I wouldn't be so scared/hesitant to hug someone.
I would be athletic.
I would be really good at breaking.
I would be better at piano.
I would read the Bible every day.
I would read the messages every day.
I would pray/talk to God every day.
I would tell everyone about how great God is.
I would love God more.
I would actually like who I am.

That, in addition to who I am now, would be ideal.

Too bad it's never going to happen.

i love studying.

Okay, this is funny.
It's the first day of school, and I'm already wondering if it's okay to study off of Course Notes.

I have a Chem test tomorrow.

first day of junior year.

It was okay.
I got to see my friends. ♥

But for some reason, it didn't feel like it was the first day of school.
Maybe it's because I'm a junior, and I'm getting old. :/

I think that from this year on, I'm going to take a lot of photos.
I don't want to forget the awesome times we have during my high school years.

I don't want to forget....

day 17: someone from my childhood.

There's a few people I always think about.

J. Chiou
A. Song
H. Folk

J. was my best friend until he moved away.
At least, I think he moved away.
Did he?
Yeah, I think he went to China or something and came back.
Something like that. XD

A. was my neighbour.
I still remember when I showed him a girls' book about puberty.
There were boobs and vaginas.
Those were the days....
Anyway. I actually went to visit him a few years ago.
He moved to P-town.
He's going to Amador, so I have to shun him now.
Jk.
I just added him on Facebook.

H. was a good friend of mine, even though she was a lot younger than I was.
I remember how we always went on day trips to random places.
Like some science museum or something.
All I remember is that we were playing some game in the car, and there was a fountain at the museum.
And we both bought harmonicas.

day 16: someone who is not in my state/country.

I've always moved a lot.

There are people in New York, Texas, and China whom I still think about.
I'm always wondering how they are doing.
I want to meet up with them sometime.

Unfortunately, I've lost contact with everyone from New York.
I still find people from Texas on Facebook and stuff, but I don't really remember anyone from New York.
Even if I did find their Facebook, would they remember me?


China is a communist country, and Facebook is blocked there.
I still go back to visit once in a while, though.

day 15: the person i miss the most.

My two best friends.

But it's okay because school is starting in two days.

Darn.

I hate school.

day 14: someone i've drifted away from.

Oh, gosh. Here's my list. :/

A. Cheng
B. Chan
B. Kim
J. Chiou (I definitly forgot how to spell his last name. Darn.)
J. Wu
L. Xu
M. Li
S. Sasfddsofashdfodsifhiasooasfds I don't know how to spell her last name
S. Oh
T. Ou

day 13: someone i wish could forgive me.

Hmm.

I don't think I've done anything TERRIBLY wrong yet.

As long as I have God's forgiveness, I'm good.

day 12: the person i hate the most/caused me a lot of pain.

The person who has caused me a lot of pain is the person I love.


I don't hate.
The Bible says to "love your neighbour has yourself."

Why hate when there is something better?

day 11: a deceased person i wish i could talk to.

I'd want to talk to Michael Jackson.

I want to thank him for teaching all of us a lesson.

I want to thank him for helping many realise the negativity of idolatry.

day 10: someone i don't talk to as much as i'd like to.

God.

day 9: someone i wish i could meet.

Please refer to day 8's post.

I want to meet him. ♥

day 8: my favourite internet friend.

I used to have a lot of friends on the internet because of crunchyroll, but I guess I lost all of them after everyone quit.

My favourite internet friends back then were:
Beni-kun
Don
Sora-sama
Sam

Something like that. I don't remember too well because I haven't talked to any of them in almost three years.
I can't believe I still remember them.

Well, I guess it's because of the impact that they made on my life then.

Yeah. At that time, I didn't have any real friends, so I would always come home and start talking to them. It was really awesome.

~*~*~*~*~*~

My favourite internet friend now has to be A. Han.

It's funny because I can meet up with him whenever I want (he went to the high school I would've gone to if I hadn't moved).
Every time I try to meet up with him, we can never find each other.

I visit that school sometimes, like on the last day of school or during breaks or whatever. I never seem to find him, though.

I really want to meet him.
He changed my life.
I want to hug him and thank him for everything he's done for me.

If I hadn't met him, I wouldn't be who I am.
I wouldn't even be alive.

Thank you so much.

day 7: my ex.

My ex... huh?

I loved him. I really did. He was everything to me. He made me smile. He helped me bring out my true self. He helped me realise who I really was.

He was so important to me.

He made me happy. Seeing him smile, seeing his happiness... that made me truly happy.

He was my entire world.

But then...
He broke up with me. It made me feel as if a huge chunk had been torn from my heart. There was a hole in my heart. A hole that seemingly no one could fill.
I cried for months. It took me the entire summer to get over him.

Even now, I still sometimes think about him. It's been more than a year.
Really though, I just miss having someone there to hold my hand.

Because of him, though, I learned that high school relationships won't last.

It brought me closer to God.
It made me realise that only God's love will last an eternity.
Because God is love.

In an indirect way, it brought me closer to my two best friends now.

It also helped me realise the beauty of DANCE.

Honestly, I'm really glad that he broke it off.
I am who I am now because of him.
I'm really thankful to him.

The four months that we were together brought me out of depression and made me truly happy.

Thank you.

people just don't understand.

My status on Facebook: God ♥

Responses I got:
Yahweh, Zeus, Apollo, Brahma, Vishnu, Shiva, Parvati, Aphrodite, Ra, Osiris, Baal, and Allah ♥
(Don't forget Artemis and Athena!)
Don't forget Jupiter and C'thulu! ♥
I was going for an encompassing comment- named a few for the point. But you're right, I missed a few...
...uh...er...
............Xenu ♥
Lol, I know. ^.^ Quetzalcoatl! ♥


People just don't understand.

I seriously just want to punch them in the face and say "fuck you," but I won't because that doesn't solve anything.

day 6: a stranger.

"Eyeliner bboy"
"The other bboy"
M. Ngo

They're still strangers to me, but I want to be friends with them.
I don't know why.

day 5: my dreams.

Dreams? Like, what I dream of when I'm asleep? Or what I dream about for the future?

I don't remember my dreams.

As for the future, I have a goal. I want to be the best bgirl in the world. I want to prove him wrong.

day 4: my sibling (or closest relative)

Can we not talk about my brother who's overly obsessed with Pokemon and Yu-Gi-Oh and makes me play with him every single freaking day?

day 3: my parents.

What about them?

love.

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day 2: my crush.

Crush? What's your definition of a crush?

My definition of a crush is someone who I'm interested in, even if I don't want to start a relationship with him or her.

In that case, my crushes are...
M. Ngo :]
"Eyeliner bboy"
"The other bboy"
J. Lee
"The guy with the Domo backpack"
"The guy who took his shirt off"
HATSUNE MIKU ♥
SAEKO ♥

day 1: my best friend.

twinsie, j.chau #1
I love him so much. He's awesome.
He's always been there for me, and he always makes me laugh. And he's special. :O
I don't know what I'd do without him.
I remember the awkwardness of when we met almost 2 years ago. We were really stupid and naive. Well, I was. I don't know about him. WE BECAME FRIENDS ON FACEBOOK. HAHAHAHA.
We're twins, but we were separated at birth. And now we've found each other. ♥♥

my prince ♥
Lubb forever. ♥
He's such a special person.
I've known him since 8th grade, but we've never really talked until Sophomore year.
And now we're best friends. :]
We became friends in the weirdest way possible. We were fighting each other with pipes. XD
Yeah. We don't fight with pipes anymore. We just roll around in bed.
Fun stuff.

30 days.

I found this 30 days thing on someone's Tumblr. But as you know, I don't use Tumblr. So, I might as well just do it on this blog.

Day 1: Your Best Friend
Day 2: Your Crush
Day 3: Your parents
Day 4: Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5: Your dreams
Day 6: A stranger
Day 7: Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8: Your favorite internet friend
Day 9: Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10: Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11: A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12: The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13: Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14: Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15: The person you miss the most
Day 16: Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17: Someone from your childhood
Day 18: The person that you wish you could be
Day 19: Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20: The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21: Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22: Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23: The last person you kissed
Day 24: The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25: The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26: The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27: The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28: Someone that changed your life
Day 29: The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30: Your reflection in the mirror

first bboy battle ♥

07 August 2010 ♥

I had my first bboy battle today at KinYoobi Con.

I'd like to say that I won, but it was a friendly n00b battle.

gender vs. sex.

I got a question on my Formspring asking me the difference between gender and sex. I feel kind of bad, though, because it's taking me so long to answer that question. Sorry, whoever you are. ><

Anyways. Here's my answer.

Your sex is based on your reproductive organs. Your gender is a mindset. It's how you choose to act. In all the history books, they always talk about GENDER roles (not sex roles). Gender roles are "the socially constructed roles, behaviors, activities, and attributes that a given society considers appropriate for men and women" (World Health Organisation). I guess, if you really wanted a definition for the term "sex role," it would be whether you get to contribute sperm or get your egg fertilised. Although that may not always be the case now BECAUSE PROP 8 WAS DENIED. :D

There is also a difference between transgender and transsexual. Transgender is just when you feel like you're a guy in a girl's body or a girl in a guy's body. Like I said before, it's a mindset. Your gender really just depends on how you view yourself for the most part. A transsexual is someone who as went through surgery to change his or her reproductive organs completely. And by that, I mean REPRODUCTIVE organs. Not boobs. Boobs don't matter in this case. Someone with a penis and boobs (like, female boobs) is considered of the male sex because one's sex depends on his or her REPRODUCTIVE ORGANS.

love is pain...?

I've heard that line in at lest five different songs, and I'm tired of hearing it.

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP

Everyone says love hurts, but that isn't true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.

Fuck you, kpop singers.

Nah, I'm kidding. I lubb kpop singers! Especially Taeyeon. :]

i like 3.14.

But really, pi is good. :]

i lubb this girl.

張芸京 ♥

















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