hong seok cheon is my hero.

Apparently, people in Asia don't get it.

"If my son becomes gay and dies from AIDS after watching 'Life Is Beautiful', SBS must take responsibility!"
Really? ANYONE can get AIDS. It all depends on your parents or who you have sex with.

"'Life Is Beautiful' has glamorized the culture of gays against what is realistically, healthy and proper for the citizens of Korea."
Who gave you the right to determine what is "healthy" and "proper"?
Who gave you the right to say that being gay is a bad thing?

'Take responsibility for my son becoming gay because of the drama?' What a funny ad, but also quite disappointing. Soon they will be putting out an ad saying don’t hang out with Hong Seok Cheon if you don’t want to be gay. This was the exact reason I was fired from 'BboBboBbo' 10 years ago when I first came out. All of those calls made to the broadcast company asking to take me off the show. If such logic was true, all of those children that were on a part of the show with me should be gay by now, but they aren’t.

The gay couple that is shown on 'Life Is Beautiful' is so beautifully and realistically drawn. If there really is a son out there that becomes gay after watching the drama, it is not because he became gay but because he actually was gay and finally earned enough confidence to come out. It could be the drama that gave him that strength to come out to his parents and ask for understanding. How unfortunate for the children that live under the parents that put out such a trashy advertisement. Aids is not a disease specific to gays. How is it that I found out that I was gay 25 years before I saw the drama 'Life Is Beautiful?' What kind of dramas did the gays in the 50s, 60s, and 70s watch in order to become gay? Being gay is not a contagious disease, you fools.

Hong Seok Cheon

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adrenaline and my 40 secrets.

I think I got too much of adrenaline today. It's good, though. It made me feel so much better.

I had the most amazing dance session ever. And I lost weight.
Life is good. :]


And here are my 40 secrets.
1 - Have you ever been asked out?
Yes.

2 - Where was your profile picture taken?
IvyMax. LOL.

3 - What's your middle name?
Jae Eun.

4 - Your current relationship status?
Single.

5 - Does your crush like you back?
Oh, yes, I like myself.
I don't have a crush. LOL.

6 - What is your current mood?
Bored!

7 - What color socks are you wearing?
Bloo on the right foot, and green/white stripes on the other.

8 - What color shirt are you wearing?
Soul Eater shirt!

9 - Missing something?
Dancing.
Although I was just doing it a few hours ago. o~O;;

10 - If you could go back in time and change something, what would you do?
Nothing. There's no point. Everything worked out the way it did, and I'm okay with that.

11 - If you must be an animal for one day what would you be?
A kitty. :]

12 - Ever had a near death experience?
Umm, I don't think so.

13 - Something you do a lot?
Dance!

14 - The song stuck in your head?
I Love God. :]
I love God because He loved me long before the world began~
I love God because He knew my destiny~
I love God because He made me part of His eternal plan~
I love God because He first loved me~
I love Him for all the things He's done for me~
I love Him for all that He is, all that He is to me~
But, most of all, I love Him as the Spirit who deep within my spirit lives~

15 - Who did you copy and paste this from?
Feli! :]

16 - Name someone with the same birthday as you.
T.Rex! :]

17 - When was the last time you cried?
Umm. Before now. P:
I don't remember.

18 - Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
Yeah.

19 - If you could have one super power what would it be?
STDs.
Super Talented Dancing. :D

20 - What's the first thing you notice about the opposite or same sex?
The person. :O

21 - What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Diarrhea in a cup.
*Cough* I mean, green tea frap.
Or vanilla frap.
Or strawberries and cream frap.
Or caramel frap.
Or frap. :]

22 - What's your biggest secret?
I don't have one. O.o;;

23 - Favorite color?
Black!
Red!
Pink!
Purple! :]

24 - Do you still watch kiddie shows on tv?
SPONGEBOB FTW.

25 - What's on your walls in your room?
My whiteboard. :D

26 - What are you?
A crayon.

27 - Do you speak any other languages?
I speak Engrish.
Mandarin.
Japanese.
Korean.
:]

28 - What's your favorite smell?
Old Spice ♥

29 - Describe your life in one word?
Amii.

30 - Have you ever been kissed in the rain?
Mhmm.

31 - What are you thinking about right now?
You. ♥

32 disappeared. O.o;;

33 - What should you be doing?
Homework!

34 - Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
The retard.

35 - How often do you talk to God?
Every day~

36 - Do you like working in the yard?
Nuu. Never~

37- If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
Something cute and Asian.
Something better than my real last name.
Like... Chau! Lee! Son! Yeo! Yeah~ :]

38 - Do you act differently around the person you like?
Yes, I act differently around myself.

39 - What is your natural hair color?
Brack!

40 - Who was the last person to make you cry?
Let's not talk about this. ^^

you're probably disappointed now.

Therefore, all I have to say is this: fuck you.

i like typing.

But only on my computer.
I like the sound that the keys make when I hit them.

It's a crisp sound.

It comforts me, in a way.

I'm weird.
But then again, I've never claimed otherwise.

the kind of pictures that i like.

What kind of pictures do I like?

Watch the last 6 minutes of episode 8 of Hana Kimi Japan, and you'll understand.

i think i'm going crazy.

I had a dream that he held my hand.

I woke up, crying because I know it's never going to happen.
It wasn't because I like him; it was because I realised the huge chunk of my heart that had been torn out over a year ago still hasn't fully healed.

But I'm not waiting for someone to come and heal this heart.
I'm not waiting for someone to love me.

I'm just wondering how long it's going to be before I decide it's okay to start a relationship with someone.

i will become stronger.

You just watch.

And you won't stop me.

bboying and God.

Towards the end of June...
That was when I first started bboying.

I remember how I could barely hold a baby freeze.
I remember how I had trouble with a three-step.
I remember how I had almost given up because I thought I couldn't do it.

I've overcome all of that.

I've gotten stronger.
Not just physically, but mentally and emotionally as well.

My relationship with God has also grown since then.

Bboying has brought me closer to God.
God has brought me closer to my goal.

When bboying, I constantly remind myself about how God has given me this strength.
God is my strength.

Without God, I can do nothing.
Without God, I am nothing.

I don't bboy alone.

I bboy with God.

you know what?

You are beautiful.

I'm not talking about a certain person.
I'm talking about you. The person who is reading this.

Yes. You are beautiful. ♥

dear jenny hsieh,

I love you.

I am so thankful to have a friend like you. ♥

loveless.

I found a quote from Loveless that complements the previous post.

He is looking for something to love. He desires an object for this love so much that when he thinks he's found it, he gives that person all he has. But agreeing to love — to trust love's object unquestioningly — that, too, is insanity.

Loveless

you're stupid.

You know who you are. If you're reading this, you've probably stalked me enough to find this. Even though we're not friends anymore.

Well, let me say this bluntly: you're retarded.

I can't believe you dumped your best friend for your boyfriend.
I can't believe you thought your best friend was trying to ruin your relationship with your boyfriend.
I can't believe you think that you're so in in love with your boyfriend and that you're going to get married to him.
I can't believe you had sex with your boyfriend.
I can't believe you think that having sex proves your love for your boyfriend.
I can't believe you're so stupid.

I thought you could've done better. When I first met you, I thought you were a good person. I thought you loved God. I thought you cared about your best friend. I never thought that you would do something like this.

And no, I'm not saying this because I'm in love with you and I'm just jealous that I can't have you.

You need to stop living in your own ideal world.
You need to face reality.
You need to realise that everything your best friend told you and everything I'm typing now is for your own good.
You need to realise that your best friend isn't trying to seduce you; she's trying to help you because she cares about you.

I loved you. And you should know that.
You were my friend.

Your ex-best friend loved you, too, you know. She loved you as a friend, as a sibling. She wasn't trying to get you to go out with her. She wasn't trying to flirt with you. She really cared.

But no, you ended it just like that.
And I don't even know how to react to that.
Am I supposed to laugh or cry?

Do I laugh because you're so naive and ignorant, or do I cry because you are?
Do I laugh because you sold your soul to the devil, or do I cry because you did?
Do I laugh because you gave up one of the most amazing girls in the world for your boyfriend whom you're not even in love with, or do I cry because you did?

You know, you're not in love with your boyfriend.

Just because you say you love him doesn't mean you love him.
Just because you kiss him doesn't mean you love him.
Just because you have sex with him all the time doesn't mean you love him.
Just because you say you're going to marry him doesn't mean you love him.

Come on. You're 14.
I'm 15, and I haven't even thought about having a serious relationship yet, let alone marriage and sex.

You don't love him.
This "love" that you speak of isn't love. It's lust.

I forgive you for having a boyfriend.
I forgive you for kissing your boyfriend.
But my forgiveness stops there.

It's okay to date.
It's okay to be in a relationship.

But you've crossed the line.

You're having sex with him.
You say you're going to marry him.
You say that you won't ever be happy unless you're in a relationship with someone.

Is that reasonable for someone your age?
Just because the legal marriage age is 16 or whatever doesn't mean that you should get married at that age.

True love waits.
And you should know that.

I'm not going to preach to you about how relationships are for marriage because clearly, you already believe that.
I'm not going to try to persuade you to break up with your boyfriend because that would be cruel.
I'm not going to try to get you and your best friend back together because I've already lost faith in you.

You made her cry. And I won't forgive you for that.

Why did you do that? You cussed her out and told her how horrible of a person you think she is.

Are you insane?
Mind you, she's probably one of the best friends you'll ever have had.
And yet, you let her go. Just like that.

She has feelings, too, you know. Heck, I'd be pretty pissed off too if my best friend decided to dump me for his girlfriend.
But of course, you wouldn't understand.
I mean, why would you? You're happy, aren't you? You're happy with the present situation. You're probably relieved that your stupid, annoying best friend won't get in the way of your relationship with your boyfriend.

Well, we all have those times when we do things like that, when we think that people are just trying to get in the way of our relationships with others. Yeah. I get that. I can understand that.

But even after your best friend yelled at you and other people told you how wrong of you that was, you're still shameless, like you've done nothing wrong. You blame your best friend for everything.

Wow.
You're retarded.
I'm not even kidding.
I want to slap you in the face.
When will you finally realise that you're not going to be with your boyfriend forever?
Your best friend will always be there for you. You and your boyfriend are going to break up.
Think about it. How many relationships have you been in this past year? So far, all of them except your current relationship have failed, haven't they? What makes you think the guy you're with now is the right one? How do you know this relationship isn't going to fail? Why are you so sure that you're going to marry this guy?

What's wrong with you?

I hope you can set your mind straight soon.
I hope you will realise that we'll always be here for you.

You don't need to be in a relationship to be happy.
Throwing your love at whomever comes your way isn't going to benefit you.
You won't be happy in the long run.

You're trashing your relationship with your friends, and more importantly, with God.

There's so much more I could say to you, but you wouldn't listen.
You'd hate me and think that I'm trying to ruin your relationship with your boyfriend.

I never thought I'd say this to you, but you're so fucking stupid.

Whatever.

Just remember this: even though we're not friends anymore, I will forgive you if you apologise sincerely. I'll help you. I'll be there for you.
But not until you realise how wrong you have been.

I'm not God.
I don't have the right to judge.
But this is just ridiculous.

Please realise soon.

I'll pray for you.

69th post. :D

I FINALLY figured out why everyone thinks I like Tristan. LOL.

umm.

I finally put the link to my blog on Facebook.

That took, oh, I don't know, about 3 months for me to get enough courage to do?

I like ice cream.

day 30: my reflection in the mirror.

I don't like to look at myself in the mirror.
I use the mirror only to fix my hair.

I don't like to see myself.
Whenever I stand in front of a mirror, I see all of my imperfections.

People are always telling me how cute and pretty and skinny I am, but I find it really hard to believe.
Even if I did have good looks, does it matter?
Whenever I look into a mirror, I see how fucked up I really am.

I am perfectly imperfect.

But it's not about being perfect.
No one is perfect except God.

I don't see any beauty in myself, whether it's inner or outer beauty.

On the outside, I'm "pretty" to some people.
But every time they tell me how pretty I am, I always deny it.
Because on the inside, I'm ugly.

I'm beyond ugly.
If people could hear my thoughts, they would confine me to a mental hospital.
But even that won't help.
They'd probably just stone me to death out of anger, sadness, and pain.
Truthfully, on the inside, I hate everyone.
Everyone causes me pain.
Everyone makes me sad.
I hate everyone.

But I'm glad that God is here in my heart.
That prevents me from running around with guns and killing everyone I hate.
I mean, if I did that, there would be no one left on this earth.
Not even me.

I hate myself.
I abhor myself.
I wish I were different.
I wish I weren't so fucked up like this.

I don't want this.

I desperately want to change.
God, please don't let me be like this. I don't like it.
Please, Daddy.

day 29: the person i really want to tell everything to but too afraid to.

I feel like I should make a confession.
Honestly, I feel like I should tell everything to my best friends.
They have the right to know everything about me, how I'm feeling, and what I'm going through.

But I'm too scared to.
I really am.
I don't want them to hate me.
I don't want them to judge me.
I don't want them to think I'm insecure.
I don't want to lose them.

day 28: someone who changed my life.

God.
Yes, He did.
He changed my life.
He kept me alive even though I felt like my life was ending.
He brought me to this day.
He was always with me.
He was always there to support me and guide me.
And I love Him for that.

I'm who I am because of God.

day 27: the friendliest person i only knew for a day.

That's easy.
It's that one bboy whom I met at Kinyoubi Con. But I forgot his name, so I can't add him on Facebook.
He was really nice.

I want to meet him.

day 26: the last person i made a pinky promise to.

I don't remember. I have short-term memory loss.
More like, I don't really pay attention. LOL.

day 25: the person i know who is going through the worst of times.

Yes! I actually have someone to write about. :D

J.Nath.

I'm going to make him a cake on Monday. :D
Yeah. He needs it.

day 24: the person who gave me my favourite memory.

I don't have a favourite memory.

But I have the best friends in the entire world who give me good memories every day. ♥