you're stupid.

You know who you are. If you're reading this, you've probably stalked me enough to find this. Even though we're not friends anymore.

Well, let me say this bluntly: you're retarded.

I can't believe you dumped your best friend for your boyfriend.
I can't believe you thought your best friend was trying to ruin your relationship with your boyfriend.
I can't believe you think that you're so in in love with your boyfriend and that you're going to get married to him.
I can't believe you had sex with your boyfriend.
I can't believe you think that having sex proves your love for your boyfriend.
I can't believe you're so stupid.

I thought you could've done better. When I first met you, I thought you were a good person. I thought you loved God. I thought you cared about your best friend. I never thought that you would do something like this.

And no, I'm not saying this because I'm in love with you and I'm just jealous that I can't have you.

You need to stop living in your own ideal world.
You need to face reality.
You need to realise that everything your best friend told you and everything I'm typing now is for your own good.
You need to realise that your best friend isn't trying to seduce you; she's trying to help you because she cares about you.

I loved you. And you should know that.
You were my friend.

Your ex-best friend loved you, too, you know. She loved you as a friend, as a sibling. She wasn't trying to get you to go out with her. She wasn't trying to flirt with you. She really cared.

But no, you ended it just like that.
And I don't even know how to react to that.
Am I supposed to laugh or cry?

Do I laugh because you're so naive and ignorant, or do I cry because you are?
Do I laugh because you sold your soul to the devil, or do I cry because you did?
Do I laugh because you gave up one of the most amazing girls in the world for your boyfriend whom you're not even in love with, or do I cry because you did?

You know, you're not in love with your boyfriend.

Just because you say you love him doesn't mean you love him.
Just because you kiss him doesn't mean you love him.
Just because you have sex with him all the time doesn't mean you love him.
Just because you say you're going to marry him doesn't mean you love him.

Come on. You're 14.
I'm 15, and I haven't even thought about having a serious relationship yet, let alone marriage and sex.

You don't love him.
This "love" that you speak of isn't love. It's lust.

I forgive you for having a boyfriend.
I forgive you for kissing your boyfriend.
But my forgiveness stops there.

It's okay to date.
It's okay to be in a relationship.

But you've crossed the line.

You're having sex with him.
You say you're going to marry him.
You say that you won't ever be happy unless you're in a relationship with someone.

Is that reasonable for someone your age?
Just because the legal marriage age is 16 or whatever doesn't mean that you should get married at that age.

True love waits.
And you should know that.

I'm not going to preach to you about how relationships are for marriage because clearly, you already believe that.
I'm not going to try to persuade you to break up with your boyfriend because that would be cruel.
I'm not going to try to get you and your best friend back together because I've already lost faith in you.

You made her cry. And I won't forgive you for that.

Why did you do that? You cussed her out and told her how horrible of a person you think she is.

Are you insane?
Mind you, she's probably one of the best friends you'll ever have had.
And yet, you let her go. Just like that.

She has feelings, too, you know. Heck, I'd be pretty pissed off too if my best friend decided to dump me for his girlfriend.
But of course, you wouldn't understand.
I mean, why would you? You're happy, aren't you? You're happy with the present situation. You're probably relieved that your stupid, annoying best friend won't get in the way of your relationship with your boyfriend.

Well, we all have those times when we do things like that, when we think that people are just trying to get in the way of our relationships with others. Yeah. I get that. I can understand that.

But even after your best friend yelled at you and other people told you how wrong of you that was, you're still shameless, like you've done nothing wrong. You blame your best friend for everything.

Wow.
You're retarded.
I'm not even kidding.
I want to slap you in the face.
When will you finally realise that you're not going to be with your boyfriend forever?
Your best friend will always be there for you. You and your boyfriend are going to break up.
Think about it. How many relationships have you been in this past year? So far, all of them except your current relationship have failed, haven't they? What makes you think the guy you're with now is the right one? How do you know this relationship isn't going to fail? Why are you so sure that you're going to marry this guy?

What's wrong with you?

I hope you can set your mind straight soon.
I hope you will realise that we'll always be here for you.

You don't need to be in a relationship to be happy.
Throwing your love at whomever comes your way isn't going to benefit you.
You won't be happy in the long run.

You're trashing your relationship with your friends, and more importantly, with God.

There's so much more I could say to you, but you wouldn't listen.
You'd hate me and think that I'm trying to ruin your relationship with your boyfriend.

I never thought I'd say this to you, but you're so fucking stupid.

Whatever.

Just remember this: even though we're not friends anymore, I will forgive you if you apologise sincerely. I'll help you. I'll be there for you.
But not until you realise how wrong you have been.

I'm not God.
I don't have the right to judge.
But this is just ridiculous.

Please realise soon.

I'll pray for you.